It’s Thursday afternoon and today has been a pretty good day, no complaints! I pray that you are all doing well and you had a great day thus far.
Sooo…I had this illusion that once my book was finished then my life will slow down a little bit. I’m so used to being go, go, go that I have to force myself to slow down a lot of times (or my body forces me lol). A few weeks ago I was talking to Ryan and I was apologizing for being MIA. I told her as soon as I was done with the book I would have more time to just chill. She responded by saying, “No, you’ll be more busy.” Well… I think she was right.
At first I thought, I’m only busy still because I have a lot of tshirt orders. When those were done I thought, it’s just because it’s still graduation season and I have to prepare to speak. Although, looking down the calendar, it doesn’t seem like that break is coming anytime soon.
On one hand I kind of lack balance. I thought that slowing down would allow me to video chat with my God daughter more, or maybe catch up on a little daddy/daughter time. Maybe I could go to my Sanager’s house, eat breakfast and take a nap in the middle of the day and not feel guilty about it lol.
On the other hand, I know that finishing the book was the goal, the finished product of a year old dream. I also know that I cannot stay in this moment, I have to keep pushing forward. God has orchestrated some pretty awesome things in my life and how ungrateful would it be for me to say in response, “thanks, but I’ll think about it next month.”
I know that I need to get better at balancing my schedule, but I also know that there is so much more waiting for me if I just put in the work. Either way, it’s not okay to stay where you are, eventually, you have to move. Anyway, I pray that you all have a wonderful night and weekend. I love you all and I leave you with this…
Isaiah 43:18-19 NLT
“But forget all that—
it is nothing compared to what I am going to do.
19 For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.
Thanks again, God bless and One love.
-Quellz (komplex simplicity)