It’s been months since I’ve seen you
And although I was extremely busy
I really didn’t expect to run into you on a Monday afternoon
I thought the feelings I had for you were resolved
At first I thought I should embrace you like a dear old friend because you provide me with an escape from the pressure.
I know that I’ll regret it later, but an escape nonetheless
Then I thought about how embracing you and escaping with you would jeopardize everything I’ve worked so hard for.
I know you aren’t worth it.
So I did what any rational girl would do in my situation lol
I tried to duck you,
Like a coworker you don’t really care for that you almost run into at a grocery store
I didn’t even want to make small talk with you!
But… I got distracted, and there you were.
I was so embarrassed to even be seen with you, knowing the effect you have on me.
Then I felt your Aura surround mine
Fight. Fight! Sigh… Weak.
So disgraced by my actions… my reaction to you, I didn’t even tell anyone I saw you.
I just continued my day in worried nonchalance.
Seeing you gave me a new appreciation for everything I have now.
Pushing me to a new height, wanting nothing more than to spend my life finding ways to overcome whatever hold you have over me.
And although I am supposed to love everyone, I honestly from the bottom of my soul, hope I never see you again.
I missed a Monday post =(
I had a really bad case of writer’s block yesterday, but you all were never too far from my mind. Charge it to my head and not my heart. When I woke up this morning… I think it was all better lol. Prayer works! Love you all and I pray you are all well. I leave you with this…
2 Corinthians 12:8-10 NLT
8 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. 9 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Thanks again, God bless and One love.
-Quellz (komplex simplicity)