Because sometimes we judge others based off our past…
Because sometimes all we need is love and reassurance…
Because sometimes God has something better waiting for us…
Because sometimes we just want to feel “normal”… whatever that is…
He knocks on her door, eagerly waiting a reply
She’s been dodging him for days
He needs to know why
bc he’s hurting inside and thinking he won’t get the future that has been visualized.
But her, see she’s waiting for the other shoe to drop
Every other guy she’s been with has been so go and then stop
So she’s pushing him away to keep herself from drowning
He’s upset bc she’s comparing him to those other clowns and
Frustrated he tells her “why can’t you just be normal?”
She looks up livid but deceptively calm. He wants to take a step back bc he doesn’t know what’s going on.
“What’s normal to me is my daddy calling me as a child and saying he’s coming to get me but never shows up
Normal is getting cheated on and accepting it bc even though he ain’t much he often times shows up
Normal is getting emotionally and mentally abused but accepting it bc it doesn’t leave a physical bruise
Normal is calling my bestfriend crying and looking for comfort when I feel used
Normal is waiting for him to lie accepting his apology then waiting for him to lie again
Normal is for me to know that he’s really with his side chick when he says he’s with his friends”
Tired of being tired she finally breaks down
He breaks down too bc he’s never heard anything close to that sound
“So don’t tell me you want me to be normal,” she says
“I just really want to be yours and I’m counting down the days
Until my heart is fully healed
And my truth is really true
And when someone speaks of neglect and infidelity
I don’t think about you
Because I know your so much better than I ever expected
And when I tried to tear us down with my issues you wouldn’t let it”
He grabs her face and dries her eyes, tired of seeing her cry
He says, “well I should apologize too, for knowing but never really understanding everything you’ve been through.
So let me rephrase, I want you to be normal and that’s true
I’m just ready to be the guy you trust enough to build normal with you. But let’s get something clear first…
I’m not your father if I say I will, I will show up
And I’d leave before I cheat, temptation isn’t enough
I’d never look You in your face and willingly lie
And you won’t call your friends crying unless there’s happy tears coming from your eyes.”
She stands up on her own fully filled off his strength
It’s like there souls have finally met and it’s super intense
Eye to eye finally it’s like reality collides
Enough for them to truly see each other like it’s for the first time.
Looking forward to forever that can’t be quantified
Looking forward to an identity they can both identify
Looking forward to banana pancakes and skipping work with no reason why
Looking forward to… “Normal.”
Psalm 143:8 (NLT)
Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning,
for I am trusting you.
Show me where to walk,
for I give myself to you.
Thanks again, God bless and One love.
-Quellz (komplex simplicity)
P.S. I’ll be @ Ella Jean’s Café on Sunday evening (around 6) for their UPCLOSE & Poetry event, if you’ll be in the Nashville area, feel free to join me =)