I Left It Better

Than Before...
Than Before…

Hey fam!

First let me apologize. I know I don’t usually do late post on Mondays but life happens sometimes… Next just know that I pray that your week is filled with love, positivity, prosperity, and many possibilities. I hope that regardless of outside factors, you continue to secure yourself so you can in turn help secure others. That being said, when is the last time you went somewhere and left it better than it was before you got there? Before I continue, let me address myself because I wouldn’t dare ask you to try something I have not already done. Personally, I like to believe that I leave places better. Not because of anything I’ve said or done but because I refuse to allow situations to control me. I like to believe that my positive nature (which I usually possess), causes others to relax a little and not stress the small things.
Now everyone has different moods but for the most part I’m pretty chill. Serious when I need to be, but laid back any other time. The type of person that likes to add to the solution not the type of person that just likes to rehash the problem.
So I challenge you to ponder that question as it relates to you…
When you leave somewhere is it better because you were there in the first place?
Does your presence push out positivity and openness or does your vibes scream negativity and close mindedness?
Self evaluation is important as we constantly affect people both directly and indirectly each day…
I challenge you with this as well…
Try to make a conscious effort to make any situation you touch better than it was before you got involved. Sometimes to change problems we have to change ourselves.
I leave you with this…

1 Timothy 4:16 (NLT)
Keep a close watch on how you live and on your teaching. Stay true to what is right for the sake of your own salvation and the salvation of those who hear you.

Thanks again, God bless and One love.
-Quellz (komplex simplicity)

“Normal”

Said Me NEVER!
Said Me NEVER!

Because sometimes we judge others based off our past…
Because sometimes all we need is love and reassurance…
Because sometimes God has something better waiting for us…
Because sometimes we just want to feel “normal”… whatever that is…

He knocks on her door, eagerly waiting a reply
She’s been dodging him for days
He needs to know why
bc he’s hurting inside and thinking he won’t get the future that has been visualized.
But her, see she’s waiting for the other shoe to drop
Every other guy she’s been with has been so go and then stop
So she’s pushing him away to keep herself from drowning
He’s upset bc she’s comparing him to those other clowns and
Frustrated he tells her “why can’t you just be normal?”
She looks up livid but deceptively calm. He wants to take a step back bc he doesn’t know what’s going on.
“What’s normal to me is my daddy calling me as a child and saying he’s coming to get me but never shows up
Normal is getting cheated on and accepting it bc even though he ain’t much he often times shows up
Normal is getting emotionally and mentally abused but accepting it bc it doesn’t leave a physical bruise
Normal is calling my bestfriend crying and looking for comfort when I feel used
Normal is waiting for him to lie accepting his apology then waiting for him to lie again
Normal is for me to know that he’s really with his side chick when he says he’s with his friends”
Tired of being tired she finally breaks down
He breaks down too bc he’s never heard anything close to that sound
“So don’t tell me you want me to be normal,” she says
“I just really want to be yours and I’m counting down the days
Until my heart is fully healed
And my truth is really true
And when someone speaks of neglect and infidelity
I don’t think about you
Because I know your so much better than I ever expected
And when I tried to tear us down with my issues you wouldn’t let it”
He grabs her face and dries her eyes, tired of seeing her cry
He says, “well I should apologize too, for knowing but never really understanding everything you’ve been through.
So let me rephrase, I want you to be normal and that’s true
I’m just ready to be the guy you trust enough to build normal with you. But let’s get something clear first…
I’m not your father if I say I will, I will show up
And I’d leave before I cheat, temptation isn’t enough
I’d never look You in your face and willingly lie
And you won’t call your friends crying unless there’s happy tears coming from your eyes.”
She stands up on her own fully filled off his strength
It’s like there souls have finally met and it’s super intense
Eye to eye finally it’s like reality collides
Enough for them to truly see each other like it’s for the first time.
Looking forward to forever that can’t be quantified
Looking forward to an identity they can both identify
Looking forward to banana pancakes and skipping work with no reason why
Looking forward to… “Normal.”

Psalm 143:8 (NLT)

 Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning,
    for I am trusting you.
Show me where to walk,
    for I give myself to you.

Thanks again, God bless and One love.
-Quellz (komplex simplicity)

P.S. I’ll be @ Ella Jean’s Café on Sunday evening (around 6) for their UPCLOSE & Poetry event, if you’ll be in the Nashville area, feel free to join me =)

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"BELIEVE YOU CAN AND YOU'RE HALFWAY THERE"  -Theodore Roosevelt
“BELIEVE YOU CAN AND YOU’RE HALFWAY THERE”
-Theodore Roosevelt

Good Afternoon Friends! There’s something very liberating about finishing what you started. About believing that you could do it in the first place…
Some of you know that I’m working on a project that has been occupying a lot of mental space. But once I began to believe that I could get it done and started making conscious efforts towards getting it done, it all came together. And there is something so liberating about that. Quick example… you ever have a checklist that seems endless and you have no idea how you’re going to get it completed, but then you do! How great do u feel knowing that you accomplished something that appeared to be impossible?
I use to be really anti checklist (we’ll account that to my overactive creativity and lack of focus) but once I began writing down what needed to be done, SURPRISE things actually got done!
And that’s kind of how life is… a series of people, places, and decisions to make. Sometimes dealing with family seems IMPOSSIBLE, sometimes you end up having to go places YOU DON’T WANT TO GO, sometimes making decisions seem HOPELESS, but in the end that feeling of completion feels so good. Of course the cycle begins again when you take on something new but you get my point (lol)…
Most things are purely mental. When you finally quiet that voice of self doubt it opens up so many possibilities. When you believe in yourself, you find that others will believe in you as well. Don’t be the person who lacks the confidence and the willpower to get it done. I hope you have a wonderful week filled with endless possibilities and I leave you with this…

Joshua 1:9 (NLT)
“This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

Thanks again, God bless and One love
-Quellz (komplex simplicity)

To Blessed Begginings

I'm aware of my reflection lol...
I’m aware of my reflection lol…

I’d just like to say THANK YOU to everyone who subscribes or checks in to my blog! It has been a month since my first post and I am ecstatic at the response I have received. You all have been awesome and a continuous encouragement!

Early on I talked about being a dreamer and not letting anyone stop you from living your dreams. This is a part of my dream so it doesn’t matter if I have 5 readers or 500, I’m extremely blessed to be making part of my dream become a reality. So, for those of you who read Dear Dreamer and enjoyed it or for those of you who are here for the poetry… or all of thee above! This is for you… Thanks again!

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You Are…

This has nothing to do with her =) Just really love this picture!
This has nothing to do with her =) Just really love this picture!

Freaked out
Insecure
Neurotic
Emotional
But you tell the world you’re fine right, but that’s not how I see it so…
You can say what you want
But your eyes don’t lie
Speak from your mouth that you’re okay
I can tell you want to cry
See, daddy never told you how beautiful you are
And, momma never told you that you’re taking it too far, look
You won’t reach your peak steady maxing out those credit cards
And hanging out at those clubs won’t help you find a real star
Yo reality is crashing
But you’re content with imagining
Tryna get attention from those arch yo back challenges
They say you learn from your mistakes but you don’t want to remember
Don’t want to let them see you down
Better grab your concealer
You don’t have to hide from me,
I can truly see your soul
And the lie that is your life
I can see its getting old
You know you need some help but don’t want to seem like a wimp
Put your pride to the side, I can see your inner strength
Playing down your intellect and dealing with the disrespect
While you pushing out your all
And receiving nothing but neglect
It ain’t right
That you cry yourself to sleep so many nights
And, deal with phone calls from ex girls trying to fight
And, I almost believed that last smile but not quite
Bc your eyes are getting dimmer cause you’re shutting out the light
Spirit of a country girl, but was raised in the city
Clever, bright, brilliant, witty
Who put him in a position to make you feel so TLC’S unpretty?
No one! So if you hear nothing else,
Please hear this, light skinned or brown skinned, Girl you are exquisite.
You are a woman who will one day be a priority to a man, not some fly by night operation but the center of his plans
You are the mother of the next generation, not a vessel simply used for quick deep penetration
You are a gift to the lives you touch, no stories go untold, giving others around you reasons to hold on
You are the source of an inner glow equivalent to the sun, the definition of the woman in  Proverbs 31…
When you’re ready I’ll reintroduce you to someone who can truly heal you
Who already knows your heart and your mind set too
Now I didn’t say it would be easy bc I know that’s not true
Just stay focused on the growth like I know you want to
You are beautiful, and that beauty comes from inside
You are a God fearing woman who no longer has to hide…
You are endless possibilities, I know this to be true
You are loved but besides God, no one can love you like you
You are…

Lamentations 3: 25-26 (NLT)

The Lord is good to those who depend on him,
    to those who search for him. So it is good to wait quietly
    for salvation from the Lord.

Thanks again, God bless and One love.
-Quellz (komplex simplicity)

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