Mom said there’d be days like this… she just never told me why. She explained to me the injustices of the world, and because of all I would go through, I should trust in God… She was thoughtful like that. She painted pictures of better times, but allowed me to use my paint brush freely so I could too paint mine…She was great like that. Never hiding herself. Trusting that my front row seat of what not to do would allow me to turn out fine… She was selfless like that.
And walked a jagged road so that my path wouldn’t match her past. Never complaining of working overtime and the difficulties of raising children with different personalities. Because, she was a mom like that…
But Mom, you failed to mention that the pressure to be anyone but myself would choke me if I let it. Making breathing feel like there’s an elephant on my chest. Why didn’t you warn me that these expectations would begin to haunt me? Leading to the moment of, “who am I and how did I get here.” I mean, did you ever feel like that? Cause if not, I can’t really blame you for that, right? In all honesty, I know I can’t blame you for anything. But silly me, making myself believe that life isn’t one of the hardest teachers… well it taught me… that’s for sure.
Although in hindsight, it’s amazing how easily we forget what we were taught in moments of adversity because I hear your voice telling me, “Have faith in God.” I shall.
It’s Monday! Very late Monday, so I know many of you won’t see this until tomorrow, but I hope you all had a great start to your week anyway. Mine was a little rough, but… it’s going to be alright… I pray you all have a wonderful week! I love you all and I leave you with this…
Proverbs 31: 25-27
She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. 26 When she speaks, her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness.
27 She carefully watches everything in her household
and suffers nothing from laziness.
Thanks again, God bless and One love.
-Quellz (komplex simplicity)
P.S. Happy birthday A =)